He’s just not that into you & other revelations

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De Dutch Diaries

Sometimes he’s just not that into you. You send a text hoping for an elaborate reply on how much he misses you. Or at least any reply at all. Instead you’re left with a big fat giant ‘read’ on your Facebook messenger.

Cue social mortification.

I had a melodramatic breakdown about a week ago (which you may have caught on if you read the previous post). But I guess your 20s are just filled with existential dread and crises, one after another after another until you hit 30! I’m presuming they stop by then, right? Hopefully by the time I have my own flat in NYC,  where I will write and live a private life with my dachshund called Jimmy.

So now the emotional tidal wave has flattened out and I’m beginning an upward loop. It’s almost as if I went so far low that I’ve been catapulted to…

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Prologue..

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Venus Is Scorned

“I don’t even have TIME to cheat! When would I even find the time?”

This was an actual response that my (new) Ex-boyfriend used to defuse and deflect multiple times over the course of 10 years.

I am a very vulnerable person with a select few people on this Earth, and I am loyal to an extreme fault.

When I heard he had a dream, I used all of my resources and did everything in my power to make it come true. I do that for everyone that I love.

Over the last 10 years my resources have gotten him a musical performance career that he had only dreamed of since he started playing the guitar as a kid.

He got his fame and put me on the back burner, so over the last few months I saved up some money and ended it.

We ended on friendly terms, because…

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Understanding Dating, Relating and Mating

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Unleashing the Cougar!

I came across this article when I was doing some research for this blog (and the book behind it) about search engine terms and questions people look to have answered on the fascinating subject of dating.

It’s interesting to read of appropriate ‘phases’ in relationships, and the idea that everything has a time and a place.

I guess we imbibe this in the many social and cultural cues that surround us from the moment we enter the world, even within our own home. Our backgrounds clearly influence who we become – if we are raised in a family of over-sharers or over-relaters, that is bound to have an affect on how we interact with others, just as the opposite is true.

Having said this, a part of me rebels at the idea of ‘correct’ and ‘incorrect’ ways to go about living our lives and forming relationships. Some of the most…

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Friends with Benefits – Reversed

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Diary of a Failed Marriage

In the middle of our marriage crisis, I wrote here how Barely Husband accused me of treating him like a friend with benefits. I couldn’t deny it. A girl has needs too, you know…

It may not have been the wisest on my part and as we drifted more and more, I still wanted sex, but it became clear it wasn’t with him. Or any living being for that matter (at that point in time). There was never anyone else involved in our break-up and I still haven’t been with anyone – it fucking sucks!

We have been friendly, getting on much better than when we were together, and he came out with this gem: he wanted us to ‘go out as friends’. Erm… I was shocked speechless as he talked about it.

In a way, it made sense: we have fun and we laugh a lot; we have been…

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thank you, next — Sexual Innuendo

Happy New Year lovely readers! I’m so eager for twenty-nineteen! Sadly, twenty-eighteen wasn’t really my year. It certainly did me no favours in the relationship department. Granted I can’t complain too much, as I learned a lot. I feel like I’m emotionally equipped, and definitely physically ready for a real, solid relationship this year. In […]

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